The Little Black Dress……

So the other day I was feeling a bit down, and I needed to get out of my house, so I went and did my nails, and later went to target to find a dress.

Now I have not worn a dress in a very long time. I wear long dresses for weddings, but never a short dress. I might of worn one last year for a friend’s wedding. But again I didn't like the way I felt, I didn't feel comfortable, and I think I was heavier at that time. I believe I have lost some weight by then. I don’t know I haven’t weighed myself but I feel it in my clothes.

So as I am searching for the right dress, this is not easy at all. I have a specific look that I like to look for. I am a tall girl with a large frame. So most dresses are too short for me, but then I go to the clearance rack of target, and there it was. I picked it out from all the other ones and went straight to the fitting room to try it on. Now I had other items at hand to try on, so of course I tried on all the other things first.

Finally when it was time to try on the dress, I was already having negative thoughts about it. it’s not going to look good, it’s going to be too tight, it’s going to show too much leg, which I tend to not be a fan of showing off my legs.

I don’t even own a pair of shorts and you would think I would since I live in Miami, but no I don’t.

So as I put it on, I zipped it up, and pulled all of the rest of the dress down.  When I looked in the mirror and I saw myself I got actually excited. It was finally something that I have been looking for. It’s like finding the right pair of shoes, or the right purse. I finally found the little black dress.

I decided to wear it to work on New Year’s Eve. As I wake up this morning and slip the dress on and put on my jacket and slip on my strappy wedge black sandals. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw something that I haven’t seen in a while. I saw something not just from the outside; I didn't see just the beautiful woman in the mirror with this exceptional dress. I saw something within. I saw a confident woman for once, I felt sexy, and I felt classy. I've never felt this way before. Normally I would need to have someone tell me how I look.

For once in my life I can finally say, hey the woman in the mirror is beautiful. She is gorgeous. I may be thicker than some woman, I may have more curves than most men would like. You know what I don’t care. I finally see the beauty within me. I’m discovering myself and I am seeing such an amazing woman grow into this beautiful flower.  I do have to thank the one person that has been there since the moment that we have met, my co worker, she has been my support since I started working here, she is amazing. She supports me in so many ways; she was the one that pushed me to buy the dress. She told me that I need to find a dress that I like and wear it out; if it weren't for her I probably wouldn't have done this. I owe thanks as well to my therapist; the past 2 months she had made me see things that I have not seen. Or realize a lot with in me. It is amazing to finally discover your voice, your beauty, your inner self. I as well thank a man, a man that I have had a rocky relationship with, but one thing he has made me so much more aware of me, of the beauty that I have. You have to be observant of your surroundings, be aware and realize what people do to you in your life, whether it may be good or bad. If it is bad, don’t take it as a negative experience, take it as learning and growing experience, part of you discovery. When it is good, keep them and cherish them forever, because those are people who will be there for as long as possible.

The three people who I have mentioned, I care for very much and happy to have there in my life.

Thanks for reading

Catalina