Goals in life....what goal do you want to achieve in 2012

Goals…..

 

May 10, 2012

Miami, Florida

Listening to: Arcade Fire            

We all have goals in our lives. If we didn’t than I feel like we would have no meaning no purpose. 

In my early 20’s I didn’t have many goals in my life I was partying way too much, doing drugs, drinking, just hanging out with the wrong crowd.  I didn’t have much care in the world. I worked a nine to five job, thinking  I would not amount to much because I was a high school dropout and didn’t really know what I wanted to do in my life, what was the point I never liked school so why go.

I had started a new job in the summer of 2001. There I will have met someone who will have changed my life forever in many ways.

 I started talking to him and we embarked on a 5 year relationship where he had made an impact on my life that will forever have change me as a woman.

I was 23 at the time when I found out the scariest and happiest news. Scary for me because it was a responsibility that was so large that I didn’t think that I can handle but I will embrace and try my hardest to be the best I could be. What am I speaking of?  

I was pregnant.

 A human was growing inside of me. I never thought in my mind to have an abortion. Not for religious beliefs. I have always believed that it is a woman’s right to choose. But for me I have never thought that was an option because I had always believed that if I did have that abortion and later on in life I wanted to have a baby and I couldn’t I would hate myself forever. You never know what can go wrong in an abortion; some foreign object is going up inside of you and removing a baby. I know people will not agree that it is a baby at that time but I believe that it is the moment of conception, call it what you want but that is my opinion. I try not to judge people on that because I have not walked in their shoes. I just don’t believe in the fact that people use that as a form of their birth control.

So once I had my son, things changed in so many ways for me as a person. It was not till after the fact living with my son’s father and having reality set in of taking care of a child and living pay check to check, we saw one another’s true colors, we would argue a lot. I am not going to put blame solely on him. The end of the relationship was because of us both. We just did not work out, I did end the relationship because I was not happy and was very depressed and I wanted an out. I needed to set myself free. I was not happy with in myself I needed to change so many things. One thing I can say we have a decent relationship and I am a very lucky woman to have him in my life and have him as my sons father because I hear all these sad stories of kids not having their fathers in their life. I honestly don’t know what I would do without his support and his love. I know he loves me as do I but at least for me it is not in that way anymore.

After the break up I had decided to go to school for medical assisting I did so well in school got the best grades graduated with honors. I found my true passion which was helping and taking care of people. I worked for about nine months at a doctor’s office but I got fired for making too many mistakes. This was at time in my life where I was going through some hard times and was not focusing. Which in the medical field you cannot make mistakes because it can affect many people especially that is the doctor’s reputation that you can affect as well. I understood when they let me go. I was very saddened by the situation, but I had understood. I respect the doctors and staff in that office too much. It ended, I think well because now she is my doctor. So things do happen for a reason.

I found another job, it is not medical but it is still impacting people lives’ in many different ways. I love what I do, and love the people that I work with. For me it is like a second home.

I still have goals I sometimes wonder if it is too many goals. I want to do so many things. First goal on the list which I am doing as we speak, is this, I never thought I’m going to write a blog, but I have always wanted to write and have people read it. Whether it is a book, a screen play, or something. I think to myself if I write my story and people read it, it will touch there life or make them think. My goal is to make an impact on someone or many people’s lives. Which I hope I have done or will do as I continue to write this blog.

The next goal on my list is to lose more weight. I have lost about 90 pounds so far and would like to lose some more. How much? I am not sure. This is not to be super skinny and or to attract men, this is for me. This will make me happy. So I will start on this new journey with all of you following along of losing weight and changing things in my life. I just want to find my happiness. I am happy but I feel like there can be more changes in my life to get me to that point of being content within myself. Because I feel as a person you have to find that happiness within you to be able to have those amazing things come into your life. I feel as a parent especially if you are not happy with in yourself than your child can emulate that, they will absorb all the negativity like a sponge. I think I am a good mom but I want to be a better mother. I have a lot of “mother’s guilt” in so many ways. I want my relationship with my son to be different. That is why I want to change many things with me. So I can be happier. The saying goes when you are married a happy wife a happy life. Well I am going to change that a happy mommy a happy child. That is one of my goals to have my son grow up to be happy the way I did.

What are your goals?

Pick one thing that you would like to do before the year 2012 ends; it can be a small goal or a large goal.

I would love to hear from you and see what goals you may have and see how you will achieve them.

Sincerely, C

 

Carolina, 28

Teacher and Business owner

“My goal is to be a good fiancé (soon to be wife), daughter and friend. And to make sure everyone in my life knows just how important they are to me. Also to be HAPPY at all times no matter what! Don’t know if that is a goal or a promise to me….lol”

Caroline

Lawyer

“Pay off my debt …credit card debt that is”

Kristin, 26 

Professional 2012 goal:  get a promotion to senior manager and improve my channel marketing acumen

Personal 2012 goal: Lose weight to attain target weight if 150. I have lost 22 pounds I’m almost 3 months and 6 pounds shy of reaching my goal!!!!

 

Andres, 22

Student 

“That is a toughie. I like the track that I am on right now. Great girlfriend, finishing up with school and the company I started up with my friends won a prize”