Giving up
something….
May 11, 2012
Miami, Fl
Listening to: My Morning Jacket
In life we
sometimes have to give up certain things. Some give up eating sweets because it
may be bad for their health, some give up soda, others have to give up
something they love like a sport or hobbies just because they may have injured
themselves.
After basically
writing my feelings in this blog, and saying things that I have wanted to say. As
well hearing others people’s perspectives on the topics. I have come to the
conclusion I want to give up something. Now this is something that I don’t think
I can give up for the rest of my life. After reading the post that several of
you put up with the sex blog, it made me think about a lot of things.
I feel that I
have been set free in some form, and one thing that I feel will make me feel
even better about myself and make me happy will be giving up sex…
(Silence)………………..
I am being
100% honest right now. I want to be able to share a special moment with the man
that I love, now I am not saying that I am going to wait for marriage but I am
saying that I am going to wait for a man that I am in love with and he as well
as me.
This is
going to be a bit weird because I think some of my family reads this but who
cares. I will not hold back. Now everyone in life, ok maybe not everyone but a
lot of people these days have that one person they can count on to help them in
that department, I had that… (Booty call). But to be honest I wasn’t happy
about that. The end result someone gets hurt or something just goes bad. We all
know that women will get attached to the man. Now it doesn’t happen to every
woman, with every man. But when that woman finds the man attractive and see’s
him often she will get attached. Don’t say you don’t…. we all know you do
Ladies. Some just hide it better than others. I just want to stop searching
that is all. I have been doing this for the past 2 years now. To be honest I have
not found much and what I have found has just ended up disappointing me in so
many ways. I have been lied to, time and time again. I have been disrespected. I
can honestly say I can count on 1 hand of all the guys that I met and was a
complete gentleman to me.
I need to
think of me, I have been too worried so much of finding this person that might
not even exist or is just not here yet. Like a good friend says to me her
knight and shining in armor is not on a white horse he is on a turtle on his
way to see her. Mine took a quick detour to get my chocolates and flowers. I am
really just plain old tired. I want to go do things and not care about
anything. I want to enjoy my life and not stress over these minimal things in
life.
So I am
declaring tonight as day one of this new spiritual cleansing and finding my
inner beauty. So I will say it has been a week of not having sex. So from now
on when I put up my blog I will put up this (<3= 1) so you know how long it
has been.
What would you
want to give up?
Sincerely, C
That's awesome Cata! You can do it!!! Best decision you will ever make xoxo!
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I will have to think real hard on what I want to give up......because if I choose to give up something.....I'm going to do it and not give up on it......So when I do give up on something I will come back and write it......Cata.....we all have our prince charming.......I totally believe that we have a partner here in this world to share it with......but we have to be smart and just wait....believe me I've been waiting for mine for 38 years.......remember what I tell you.....my prince charming is on a turtle taking a tour (a long one) before he gets to me.......we cant loose FAITH.......
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