Im done...

Miami, Fl

Three years ago you made a decision that will change your life and mine as well. You decided, chose, felt the need to go with someone else and to break all the trust that I had in you and most of the human kind.

At the time you had destroyed my world with the lies that had come out of your mouth constantly. I didn’t know what to believe if you thought I was beautiful or not. You would say things to me that would make me think twice. I had questioned myself worth so many times. Our love was toxic; we were both so fucked up with our selves that it was not easy to love one another the normal regular way. There was lots of anger and tears, lots of resentment towards one another. There were some good times, but when the bad outweighed the good it’s not healthy to stay.

I realized a lot of things being alone these past 3 years, and I realized myself worth so much more. I know I was not what you had pictured in your mind to be with. But you know what you were never something I had pictured of being with either until I fell in love with you. The love I had for you was so intense and yes again it was not healthy in many ways. But I loved you, did you? Only you know that answer.

Why am I writing this? I know you read this! I want you to know that I am not looking back anymore. My past is my past they are distant memories, I need to build my life and fix the broken so I can find the healthy relationship that I deserve. Someone that will love me for me, not just pieces of me. It’s funny how you can be with someone and find them so beautiful and love everything about them, and then they shatter your world into little pieces and make you see the ugly in them.

I have forgiven you in my heart and I am healing every day little by little, but what doesn’t help when you keep contacting me. I do not at all play the innocent one in this sick little game we have played with one another.

I’m done!!!

I want you to live your life happy or not however you are feeling. I don’t want any part of it, I don’t want to know what you think after you read my blog. I really don’t care anymore. You can read it all you want it is a public thing, just don’t text me at night when I’m sleeping to know your story. You lost that privilege, you chose that for yourself.

I know what you might be thinking, that I am not an innocent bystander in this, you will bring up many things like the car. But guess what I don’t care anymore about your pain. This may be harsh and cruel but to be honest I’m sorry for being so callous but that is how I feel towards you if you decide to bring up those things. This is one thing that I think about the type of betrayal that you have done to me does not add up to the things that I have done.

I do not wish anything bad towards you; I don’t have hate towards you either. I choose not to be the bitter woman that a situation like that should have created me into.

Things happen in life for many reasons, I believe this had to happen to me for many reasons, one of them is this blog, I have lots of people who read this, and hope fully they read this and take something from it, maybe they are going through similar experiences maybe they can learn how to forgive the way I have with you, as long as I have affected one person that is all that matters. I will never know if I have changed someone or made them realize something, but as long as I keep thinking it maybe it will happen and if not oh well. This is my outlet this is my way of talking about my life, of letting go of the past.

Hopefully you can fix your issues, and live a happy life. I know I am doing that right now by letting you go for good.

Good bye and thanks to whom ever does read this blog.

Sincerely

Catalina