Listening
to: My Morning Jacket
June 26,
2012
Well it’s
been a while since I have posted up a blog; I’m the type of person that needs
to be inspired by things in my life. Since the last that you have heard from me
I was talking to the Mexican that ended before anything began he just stopped
texting and calling me. I don’t think I did anything wrong, the only two things
that I have thought could have been that he found someone else or he found
someone that would give it up quicker (sex). Oh well you win some and lose
some. Like Jay Z says on to the next one.
After the
Mexican actually during that time I was speaking to a Cuban, that lasted about
five seconds, and then there was a Puerto Rican, and another Cuban. The other
Cuban did not stick either he was too persistent on having me go to his house.
The Puerto Rican on the other hand stuck!!! But stuck in a very different way
that I never expected.
I messaged
him asking him if he wanted to talk and get to know one another. He messaged me
back with his number. He did not waste time. We spoke that night till about 3
am. we found out we both had the same taste in
music, we both have sons, and we
are both in our thirties, and we live about a block away. We will call him “THE
NEIGHBOR”. The one thing that I enjoyed off the bat was our conversations, he
was extremely easy to speak to, very intelligent, he uses some words that I’m
dumb founded that are coming out of him, and he speaks very eloquently.
Sometimes I have to go home and Google some of the words that he has said to me
because of the fact that I don’t remember the definition of it. Like the
word.
Wikipedia defines, Mensch (Yiddish: מענטש mentsh, from German: Mensch "human being") means "a person of integrity and honor."[1] The opposite of a "mensch" is an "unmensch" (meaning: an utterly unlikeable or unfriendly person). According to Leo Rosten, the Yiddish maven and author of The Joys of Yiddish, "mensch" is "someone to
The
following day I told him I wanted to meet him. So we set up a time, and we met
half way and went for a walk. At first I was a little bit nervous. Whenever you
meet someone for the first time you start to think what if he is boring what if
he is weird or something how do you end this time without being rude. I
personally don’t like that if someone did that to me, I was taught manners.
So we met
and I thought he was cute, at first it was little small talk but then I at
least got comfortable enough to talk to him about other things. I believe we
met at 7:30pm by the time I got back to my house, it was 11pm. So you can
imagine we talked about a lot.
After the
first meeting we hung out a few days after that, On a spur of the moment and of
boredom and not being able to sleep I asked if he wanted to go for a drive it
was about 11:30 pm, I had picked him up from his house because he was drinking
that night because the heat was playing so he was watching the game with some
friends. So we decided to go to Key Biscayne and we just parked, listening to
music and talking, about everything and anything.
One thing
that we touched upon was the fact that he does not want a relationship. He does
not think he wants a relationship at all maybe ever. That intrigued the shit
out of me. I started questioning and my analytical side started coming out more
and more the more he kept saying no!!!!
So it’s been
3 weeks of an interesting friendship, he talks about him and I ask him lots of
questions, which I do believe he enjoys.
A lot of people I think enjoy speaking of them. Let’s just say he is not
shy, and he is 100% honest about everything. He is one guy that you can call
him and ask him about anything and he won’t give you the bull shit answer that
most people do, to not hurt your feelings. One thing he mentions to me is to
not get feelings for him, he can see right through me of the fact that I am a
hopeless romantic and that I am on a search for Love. I of course tell him that
if I felt any different towards him I would tell him. Now don’t think that all
conversations are all about him, we talk about me. I have noticed I am a bit
more resistant on speaking to him about certain things with him at least thus
far, I will eventually tell him more and open up more. But right now I enjoy
the dynamic and what we have, which is a nice friendship. One thing that I
enjoy hearing him speak of, is his son and his relationship. It’s a different
way of speaking of your child. But it is cute and funny and how much he tries
to be his son’s best friend and it makes me smile when I hear the stories. He
doesn’t think he is kind he thinks that he is mean. What I have noticed at
least when I am with him is that he is thoughtful he does listen very well and
you think he doesn’t. He has ADD and with that you think they are doing or
thinking something else but really he is not he is listening and listening very
well. On that part he reminds me of my son because Jon has ADHD and I sometimes
think the same of him, but they do retain lots of things especially when you
think they are not. I do feel a slight sadness coming from him, I do tell
him this; he says he is not sad. But for some reason I can’t stop thinking that
there is something he is not telling me. We will see I guess.
All I know is
that I appreciate his kindness and his friendship because he is honest and
communicates his feelings well, he pushes me to do better and encourages me to
do the things that I want to do.
Thanks for
reading
Sincerely, C
